'Ponders of an intelligent Idiot'

All I can say is ARG! and not in the fun pirate Arg sort of way but in a really-trying-to-express-the-amount-of-pent-up-emotion sort of way. 

First work, what a load of shite this is! I was in Glasgow yesterday and got offered a position, but its only a poxy 20 hours so that does fuck all for me since I would need to find a house and all that jazz if I moved back.  But I spoke to Norma on level one menswear and she said she would look out for another 16 hours elsewhere for me bringing me up to the desired 36.

BUT OLD PEOPLE – REALLY! They are the reason its shit.  My store looks as though (I will be using the word shit alot since my literate section of brain has been turned off this evening) its just a piece of shit.  Glasgow looked brilliant and they had 6 members of staff on the floor compared to us who have a minimum of 4 on at least a quarter of the Glasgow floor size! SERIOUSLY WHY THE FUCK IS THAT HAPPENING. (Also caps lock will be used alot but really I am being dramatic)

So I had a massive rant about all the old fucks who don't give a shit – can’t teach an old Dog/decrepit-fucked-up-waste-of-human-DNA new tricks eh?

Today I did do some fuck off amazing display work on men shirts – got some ties and ‘roushed’ them (Its my word for it because I don't think there is one) and they looked so bad ass – then did some other really spring-like nice displays.

So yeah rant over, well I could rant a bit at the fact I can never take a nice photograph but that's just vain and ridiculous and I feel I have said enough for some comments like ‘Aw you look good’ to make me feel better? thanks?

Gays are dicks too. Seriously fucked up about this Leo thing but I ran out of energy for this now so I cannot be bothered explaining.

I feel better though =] so thanks Dean for letting me get the idea to use a blog in the first place.

SHIT (Just cause)

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I loved last night, it was just a night were I couldn’t stop smiling.  Great company and just interesting in general.  Met Ruth's new beau Phil who was a really sweet and hyper guy and really imaginative. 

The fact I was just tipsy and not really drunk also made it since I could actually just look at what was going on rather than leaning against a wall trying to stay awake or being stuck on repeat with the one dance move on the floor.  You know that one you move your head like a pigeon and move your hands as though you are running forward?  Nope? Just me then.

I was different last night, I just enjoyed the company and everyone in it rather than gazing off into the crowds people watching (well not all night), not that I don’t always enjoy the company I just like to be sort of separate yet part of a group and watch from outside the box in a way…I don’t think anyone will really understand what I am trying to say =].

Oh and Farz and Matthew were being all hardcore, they nearly got in a fight because someone kept calling Farz “Sarah”.  Ah I just hate big conflicts like that, the ones where its so pointless and you just look like those fools you see fighting drunkenly.  But it all worked out fine – although Farz has some amazing fighting energy he is so small and I didn’t expect it from him.

Caught up with Bleach this morning =]

I can’t get out of bed, need to watch skins and need to eat something.  Bleh I hope I left money in my wallet for Dominos tonight.

I decided to start this as well, it seems like the done thing to do and I have reason that it will hopefully hold benefits to myself. This all seems a bit way too pompous already, I guess that is how I see blogs.

Like you see a critic judging a piece of art and using big words like “Voluptuous” and… ha-ha. Yeah I can’t think of any other to describe Art… and lets not discuss the fact why I think the word Voluptuous has fuck all to do with it either. He has his own opinion and maybe it is based on years of training in University but it all still seems a bit fake possibly because I don’t understand it but I am more likely going to agree with it being fake.

Ohhhhhh wow thought…I think its fake because I don’t understand it? Behaviourist psychologists believe that people fear the unknown and that fear itself causes the fight or flight reflex, clearly I am a fighter…

So yeah I feel a bit lost already, what am I supposed to say?

Okay lets start with this.. So many people have passion and interest in the world and their advancement as people and they wonder how they can better themselves to achieve their ambitions so I wonder why I lack it or maybe it isn’t everyone that has it? Like one person has brown eyes and another has blue?

I am happy to be me and roll with the punches, okay I should make more of an effort sometimes but should I feel ashamed I don’t want to be this amazing visual manager or a fantastic writer….I have dreams but they are of things surreal and random and really they are just daydreams. Ah there you go, you just clicked “This ones a procrastinator” – well I tell you fuck off. =]

This blog has no purpose but to be able to put my thoughts down and consider different ideas of people and who they are – I guess it will be my Psychological Study of People. But not all the time.

I guess it also will help people look at my mind and get an idea of how I think? To maybe understand me a bit more since I don'to think people realise alot of what I am thinking. =]

That's it so far, love it, hate it, enjoy it, look forward to it. Up to yourself really.