'Ponders of an intelligent Idiot'

 

Dear Journal.

Today was awesome! Especially compared to yesterday.  So this post is going to be long-winded and boring for everyone and will mainly be used for its purpose. A view-point of my day through my eyes to look back on.

It was a very long morning – woke up around 8.30am I think and well I probably could have stayed in bed till about 1 if I wanted to but I had to get up and pee. 

I decided once [I was up – I was up]

Last night seemed to be a bit of a bonding session for me and Tyson. I just acted like he was a dog.  That sounds weird but with all the ‘respect/disrespect’ chat I have been getting from Stephen I just found it hard to treat Tyson just like a dog and easier to treat him more like a thing to control.  The thing is, it’s all about respect but not not about controlling respect.  More a mutual respect.

Mutual respect is really important in any relationship.  We are all brought up with the idea of control and power.  That develops into wanting to control things and ‘be over them’ on the food-chain.  Why don’t we just see that we are all just dealing with the same shit!? Mutually respect each other to just get on with it, rather than trying to control each others shit and show them how to live with it.

After breakfast of tea and porridge I threw on some clothes and headed out with Tyson for a walk.  I was in two-minds to take him on a long walk and decided I will choose when I reach the enterance/exit of my estate.  As soon as I got there Tyson automatically turned round to go home.  Guess I didn’t need to decide.

I woke Stephen up rather early just to ask where the dog food was.  He got kinda pissed off but I wouldn’t let the wee thing starve until he got up late into the afternoon.

So afterwards I got changed into some proper clothes (trousers, shirt, tie, cardigan and cons.) and headed into town contemplating how long a morning it has been.

I feel much better today after a big walk through temple bar – seeing the wee book festival they have and being reminded of some funny memories. E.g. Fringe 08. So I was sitting in the Cha teahouse where I always get crap service but love the place.  They just seem rather ignorant and don’t acknowledge you very well or smile or even just talk to you to say ‘hi hows it going’.  Maybe I expect a small independant quirky store like that to be perfect but I get worse customer service there than I do in any major starbucks. But maybe I have to view the better side – the disgruntled worker is way better than the fake smiles of starbucks.

Oh and I started reading Dracula again – which is interesting considering my tea was blood red.

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Jesus I must have been in a daydream after the tea-house, I’ll be fucked if I can remember anything after it. I guess I just got lost in thought…I’ll try and retrace my steps.

I went to urban outfitters and bought Tyson a little sherrifs kit with blue bandana and sherriff badge to wear. As David said he has finally ‘come out’ – well they do say some dogs mirror their owners.  God knows if this is also true for behaviour.  Does remind me of big gay al’s dog from south park.

So afterwards I headed to the winding staircase bookshop (my favourite) – the old bearded love of my stalker life no longer works there.  God damn it! Ha. Nothing really took my interest so I boosted to Topshop to visit Amy who wasn’t working so wandered round to Jess and had major catch ups.  Jordan got the job in Urban outfitters so that is awesome. *cough* discount *cough*

Nothing else really happened, visited tower records and flipped through the Gay Times and Attitude but didn’t bother buying.  Seen Lily Allen get her babs out for i-D.

So then I ended up doing my old school thing of a pint of cider and a good book sitting in the front lounge, if I was 30 years older I would have looked like some prowling pervert of a gay old man.  Especially a weird one reading dracula!

So yeah that was it….im so putting the rest into bullet points.

- Shot down someone who asked for my number – HARSH.

- Watched some t.v. and had toast and tea for dinner.

- Chatted to Davids (Boyfriend and friend)

- Really had major urges to get stoned and contemplated trying to figure out making hash into tea – ended up with a recipie for hot chocolate and a want to watch spirited away.

- Chats were fragmented with me and david – I hate not seeing him more than I do!

Thats it.

Night x