'Ponders of an intelligent Idiot'

1/6th of the way till I have finished my 30 day challenge. 

Ah my head is just really weird today, I did nothing so my brain didn’t get used and is just feeling so blank now. Oh god I better quit while I am ahead before this post becomes emo.

ANYWAY – Yeah so I slept in for ages this morning which was really nice. Got up around 1ish and sort of just farted about the house wondering what to do, I ended up finishing my room and cupboard but didn’t hover BECAUSE…I got this really weird train of thought.

I would have nothing left to do.  I know it is such a nihilistic view as though there is nothing left so I would just stop. But that is how I felt, just completely unchallenged or motivated to move onto something else.  If I did the hovering then it’d all be done, it would be (as David put it) “final”. 

Too be honest, the idea really frightened me a bit. So I turned on Motion City Soundtrack and lay on my bed for ages and then clocked a picture of Kate on my windowsill and just thought at that moment I have never missed her more than I did then.

The rest of the day I just popped down to Spar and picked up some food, was texting Jenny who is going to be having some Michael Jackson party in a couple of months and I need to dress as a Michael Jackson (I want to do the zombie/peter pan version from South Park).

I just realised I never told David any of this, I don’t know why, maybe I just forgot.  But it is probably cause I am sort of just drifting and hardly thinking tonight. 

Really happy I spoke to Becca tonight, nice to hear how she is getting on since it has been ages! I was dickish and never replied to her last post.  I know she may read this so she should know I didn’t know how to ask about her graduation without it showing I never asked earlier. HA I am a coward.

Get better soon Becca.

Oh and talking about getting better, my right nostril has been acting like it has a cold but the left one is fine. Ha.

Played some XBOX and I think I am over it, want to sell it now ha.  Games just seem so pointless, there is a storyline that has no relevance or use for real life you just repeat certain actions with increasing challenge until you win and develop skills you will never use again. SCORE. Once you know the theory its rather redundant really.

OKAY THATS IT.

Time for tea and bed.  Going to get up early and go out tomorrow and do something nice.  Maybe go to a photography exhibit I saw or else I will visit the botanic gardens.

Night. Sorry this is such a pathetic post.